work has finally stopped. hopefully, i wouldn't be suddenly assigned to some far off place as emergency help. and there's only a week of holidays left!!

somehow, even as i want to study harder, i realise that there will always be other mad people who will study harder and get better results. so i shall be contented, study-wise, to just try my best and accept fate, together with all those freak accidents where my expectations does not coincide with reality.

somehow, i just want to enjoy life more. not get so stressed up, just to enjoy company of good friends and family. spend less time worrying about how much money i've holed up, but to spend it within my means to make myself happy, and to make loved ones happy. *hmm*shredder?

and as usual, the one thing i always hope i could master, a better temper.

happy new yr!

the year's drawing to an end! one year has passed by so quickly i'm amazed. kinda zonked out from work, and yet, all too soon, school's starting again! well, that's life..

my mother actually has some siao-on colleagues who suggest going into JB for a one day trip tomorrow. hahaha, i might just oblige.

我的避风港，最能安慰我

results were out yesterday, and i will always feel blessed to know you waited 5 hours for me. just cause you knew i would be sad, just cause you wanted to make me smile and feel that little bit better.

and you did. you made me know i would always have you to share my sorrows, and i could always cry into your shoulder. the warmth of your hands suffused through my skin and touched my heart. and after a while, my tears were not cause of the results, but cause i was touched by your deep love for me.

i will rise above this catastrophe and strive hard. i shall appeal.

有了你，我心无他求

i hate her ways of doing things, bypassing informing me and yet expecting i'm ok. and try as i may to pretend i don't care, i am hurt that her son always seems more important.

vjc at 930am tomorrow.

it doesn't mean i'm less happy than she is. it's just that my story is currently still partially shrouded in secrecy. but why do i look at her photos and envy her?

there are times when i know i think too much, bothering myself with stupid questions of the past that has gone by, and the future which no one can tell. there are times when i just want to hear the simple words and feel the world in my pocket.

there are times when i feel like blogging, but even i don't know what i'm talking about.

看到街道上一对头发银白的夫妻手牵手，难免会向往拥有他们一样的幸福。仿佛可以感觉他们对彼此的了解，与那自然的情意。但我又会害怕以后的我会讨厌“老夫老妻”这字眼，嫌这样的爱情庸俗。

午夜梦回，只希望你心里的是我

had a crazy ktv session with the girls yesterday. headed down to katong for chicken rice and then proceeded to katong shopping complex for 4 hours of singing till 1.30am. because my mum joined us for about half an hour, we were suddenly inspired to sing oldies, those songs that accompanied us during the early 90s. haha so there was only one jay, two jolin, two s.h.e songs the whole night.. and in place of the usual songs we sang there were andy lau, theresa teng, grasshoppers!! hahaha can you believe it? had fun exchanging presents at the stroke of midnight, took us almost half an hour just drawing lots, nearly drove us all crazy lol.

merry xmas people! have fun and stay safe! =)

have you been missing me? i'm sorry.. been working my ass off. every night i reach home and i sleep. the next morning i wake super early and go off to work. all these, under a fierce mum and meagre pay. haha pathetic

and tomorrow, i'll have to reach a certain unknown secondary school at 630am. my life is driving me crazy..

thank god christmas is coming! take care you people! muacks

had a busy week with little sleep. went out everyday from monday to sunday. severe lack of sleep causing work to become a dread beyond the usual bore. haha

christmas present shopping this week! lalala.. so far the only christmas celebration planned is the one with the girls on the 23rd. was supposed to eat dinner, sing ktv, then head to leen's house for mahjong through the night. now leen says her house cannot, so we're just going to eat and sing, but at least we get to celebrate xmas together!! =)

it's been good having you back..

i said something yesterday that i regretted. i wish i could take it back, for i know the words stung.

i saw someone today who i treasure. i wish the day didn't have to end.

down with flu. sick!~!! blea. but had evan over for chicken rice dinner.. haha seeing her again on fri for the trio's birthday clecbrations.. but i am kind of hating work, cause it leaves me no choice but to meet only for dinner and then having to reach home considerably early for work the next morning.

be back soon!!

slacking during the weekends is extremely good for health, what with working from mon to fri 830am to 6pm.
but at least this coming week will be a happy one! meeting evan for dinner at my house tomorrow, girls on tues, qiuling on wed.. lalala!! thurs and fri should be happy days too! which means i eat only one day dinner at home!

the eh?! in my voice mailbox made me laugh, and wished that i was there...

how come nobody jio me go out ar?

i feel like i can't sit properly, can't sleep properly. haiz..

我什么都还没说，你已经知道
我一个表情，你全都明了
被相同的事物逗笑，拥有相同的嗜好
冲口而出同一句话，不约而同想到同一件事情
这就是我们之间的默契

i seldom do things that i regret. but each time i throw my temper, i regret almost immediately. and then i question why i couldn't just restrain myself from scolding vulgarities or showing a black face. the times i do, no one notices the effort it costs me. but the times i don't, people just want to remind me about how i've always been like that.

i guess you're right, you have a boorish and insolent sister.

took out an AHS 2000 yearbook and started flipping through it. realised how much we've all changed. from being allowed to have only short hair, and skirts that went past our knees, to varying length and colour of hair and attire today,we're no longer the little boys and girls captured in those photographs.

all i can say is, those were once the best days of my life, and they continue to form a beautiful part of my memory. i know the friendships made those years would stay with me throughout my life. and though the guileless hearts that went in through those gates are no longer, we've gained maturity and knowledge, both in mind and in heart.

exams are finally over!! but somehow i'm still waiting for the feeling of pure freedom to descend upon me..

met gen just now! had a talk which wasn't long enough!! i hate meeting my friends about once every 3 months!

it breaks my heart to hear the tremor in your voice..

even if i did my best to 97%, you still asks only for the 3%.